In see her in every star

 This is my pen and fluorescent yellow marker drawing of the woman I dream of since the year 2000.

 I see her in every star, I see her in every ray of light, in the whole nature, I see her in everything and if she was real I would place her in the center of my universe.

The image below is a painting of the same woman I've made 10 years ago. By that time my paintings were different from what I do now but the image I had in my mind was the same: a beautiful woman shining in my universe, between the stars.

The inner winter

These are my winter drawings and paintings, my creations expressing the coldness I've always felt, the inner winter, the coldness of the empty place in my heart and in my mind.

This is my pen drawing of a cave woman so beautiful and so cold, cold like an ice cave.

This is one of my inner polar landscapes, so frozen, so cold, an image of the coldness inside my soul, the coldness I've felt so many times.

She is an ice mountain so cold and distant and these two creations express this coldness I've always from many women.

This is "The cold eyes of winter", another cold winter drawing, the cold eyes of winter looking at me from long distance with a cold look.

She is my winter queen, the queen of my inner winter, so beautiful but so cold and I can never reach her. Oh how much I wish she was warmer and bring spring into my life but she is so distant and cold.

This is the winter and the cold inside, that feeling of coldness and the video below contains some of my winter creations with a song that describes what I've always felt.
It's so cold inside, in my heart, in my mind and these are some images of my inner winter





These are the lyrics of the song

Yes i miss you,
In the summer days,
In the winter nights,
When the moon is bright.
Yes i miss you
And it`s cold inside
In my heart, in my mind
In my heart ....

Yes i miss you,
In the summer days,
In the winter nights,
When the moon is bright.
Yes i miss you
And it`s cold inside
In my hreat, in my mind

Yes i miss you,
In the summer days,
In the winter nights,
When the moon is bright.
Yes i miss you
And it`s cold inside
In my hreat, in my mind
There`s an empty place
Without you !

Yes i miss you,
Holding me so tight
Loving me all night
'till the sun light
Yes i miss you,
When the night bright
In my heart,
In my mind,
In my heart,
In my mind

Yes i miss you,
Holding me so tight
Loving me all night
'till the sun light
Yes i miss you,
When the night bright
In my heart,
In my mind,
In my heart,
In my mind
There's an empty place
Wïthout you !

Another cold winter drawing

This is my newest pen drawing representing the coldness I’ve felt so many times, the inner winter, a personification of winter, so beautiful and so cold

Making of “Frozen cave woman”

I’ve made this video of me making a pen drawing yesterday

This is the drawing I’ve made using just a blue and a red pen

Then I used a blue pencil to finish it.
This is the result.

I put the name “Frozen cave woman” for this drawing be cause It is expressing the coldness I’ve felt so many times. She is so beautiful and so cold, cold like an ice cave, cold like a heavy winter and her coldness hurts.

Like a child…

I use to live my life alone but in my dreams I’m always with her and she loves me like no one on this Earth did and makes me feel protected and loved. Her love is so warm and tender and has something maternal too. Unfortunately I don’t know her in my real life but in my dreams she is always with me and I need her affection like a child.

This song describes the best what I feel only in my dreams. I wish she was real and I could “dive in her arms” and feel her love.  If she was real I would give her my love and my all and put her in the center of my universe.The drawings in the video are my drawings representing me and her.
Here are the lyrics
Impact vs. Moving Elements – LIKE A CHILD
I gave you my love
I gave you my all
There is nobody else
I know who you are
Why don’t you stay
I night and a day
I wanna dive into your arms
I keep holdin’ on to your love
Like a child
Craving, burning, yearning for your love
Promise me you’ll always be there
When i need you, when i’m calling for your love
Touch my heart
Hold my hand
Make love to me
I need your love

Lady of Auxerre

This is my pencil drawing inspired by a Greek statue called Lady of Auxerre, a statue of a Kore (a maiden, a young girl). This is the way I imagine the girl who was the model for this sculpture by the time she lived.

Atlantis woman

My new pen drawing of a woman from Atlantis standing so beautiful in the light of aurora borealis and pyramid effect

I wish I was a flower and she was my butterfly

 I wish I was a flower and she was my butterfly. I wish I was a white flower that could make her come with her butterfly wings and take me with her, to fly with her. I've made both of this pen drawings thinking about this: me as a white flower waiting for her to come to me. I've made the first drawing this year while the second one was made during high school.

Me with the almost 2000 drawings of beautiful women I've made in my lonely moments

This is me with the almost 2000 drawings of beautiful women I've made in my lonely moments since the year 2000. I decided to post this photos be cause many people believed I am a male when they were looking at my creations.

Me with some of my paintings

For those who don't believe that I am the artist here are some pictures of me with my paintings

Female Icarus

This is my view of a female Icarus, a strong woman who wants to fly with her wings. I wish I could fly with her

4 seasons

This my newest pen drawing representing the 4 seasons, the cold blue winter, the fresh spring, the hot green summer and the brown autumn.

Here is and older version of the drawing, a pen drawing I’ve made when I was 16.

Beautiful woman in the morning light, red pen drawing

I’m lost in your eyes, ocean blue in the skies

New pen drawing inspired from Anya’ song “Beautiful world”.

A beautiful world that shines

Since the year 2000 I dream of a beautiful world, an universe I built with every creation i make, a beautiful world that shines for my perfect love, something to beautiful to be real.

Anya’s song “Beautiful world” is resonating with my feelings and my dreams of a beautiful world and an ideal love.
I’ve made this pen drawing inspired by the song’s lyrics, this is the way I imagine my perfect love, a girl with ocean blue eyes, a deep blue that makes me get lost in her eyes.Unfortunately this girl who could make my universe a beautiful world that shines is just a creation of my mind.

This video contains my drawings, paintings and digital creations of the images I have in my mind for 10 years, the image of that beautiful world shining, the image of my ideal love. My creations fit the best the song Beautiful world be cause since the year 2000 I dream of the wonderful universe, where is my imaginary love with blue eyes, The one I always draw imagining she is is real and I am next to her and we are flying high in my dream universe of light holding hands and kissing.

Here are the lyrics of the song

Anya – Beautiful world

How beautiful is this world, it shines for you...
How beautiful is this world, it shines for you...
It shines for you..
I'm lost in your eyes,
Ocean blue in the skies,
I can't control my feelings for you.
I'm found in your kiss,
Make you smile, cry your tears.
You chase all my fears tonight
It feels divine...
How beautiful is this world, it shines for you...
How beautiful is this world, it shines for you...
It shines for you..
How beautiful is this world, it shines for you...
It shines for you..
You know that I try,
I get love, I survive,
I can't control my feelings for you..
It feels just divine, flying high, you and I,
I shake all my fears away tonight, it feels alright.
How beautiful is this world, it shines for you...
How beautiful is this world, it shines for you...
How beautiful is this world, it shines for you...
It shines for you..

I wish I was there with her….

I whish I was there, on a space ship with a beautiful woman. I wish we could stay together an watch the stars, the Milky Way and Saturn. I wish… but it will never be real so this pen drawing was the only thing I could do thinking about this

Livia

She is Livia, one of the bad girls of my mind. Livia is so wild, dominant and strong. You may ask me why I call her Livia. Her name was inspired by a character in Xena - warrior princess

Warm embrace

This is a pencil drawing I’ve made two days ago imagining I am wearing an elegant white dress and the woman I love comes to me and holds me from behind. I wish  it was real. I wish I could feel her warm embrace and her hot breath on my shoulder. This is one of the thousands of drawings I’ve made in my loneliness motivated by the need to love and be loved and inspired by an imaginary muse I'm so in love with.

Another dream of love

This is a drawing I've made using a red and a black pen and some color pencils. This is the newest drawing I've made thinking of one of the imaginary women I was in love with, a beautiful woman with long black hair, beautiful and worm but strong at the same time.