I've made this drawing yesterday creating an artistic image of my mood. This is what I feel these days, the dark feelings flowing like dark matter, the sadness, the poverty, the disease I see all around me, in all the unhappy people I know, the infinite sadness, the endless spreading like a cancer.
This is how I feel. This is me: a rainbow in a boring dark world, a spot of color in a black and white world. People around are all the same, shadows with no feelings and no personality. How much I wish I could see another rainbow around me
People in Romania have a superstition. They say that dreaming yourself as a bride is not a good sign. I remember long time ago I had this dream. I dreamed myself wearing a bridal dress and the woman who is almost always with me in my dreams even if I've never meet her was next to me. I dreamed I married her. These days I've made the drawing above remembering this dream
I've made this painting starting from an older painting, a painting I've made 10 years ago, a painting of a dream of love in white, the color of purity. I still have that painting and I cannot drop it to the trash can be cause even if it is not a masterpiece it means so much to me be cause it brings back the feeling I had when I've made it and I can see more in this painting than someone else, I can see the image that was there in my mind when I've made it, a beautiful young lady standing naked in a white bed with flowers all around her and sweet cream on her breast waiting to be kissed softly a delicate bride in her wedding night, so beautiful, so sensual, it makes me want to be there next to her. I wish she was my bride
She is leaving, not looking behind. She is so cold. I watch her from behind. I wish she gave me a sign. I wish she could feel for me what I feel for her. She is the girl in my dreams. This is my drawing of a feeling I had many times until now, her coldness and my feelings for her turned into sadness and tears
I dreamed this map of Romania and a strange vibe coming from the Black Sea this morning. The vibe came from the spiral in the Black Sea, spiral that was reflecting in a smaller spiral somewhere in Moldova I dreamed this image was on a big screen and I don't know what it may symbolize.
Sometimes I feel so lonely and I wish this was not just a painting. I've dreamed this on Saturday. I was the woman in the right. I was so happy with my love. We were walking on the street holding hands and we didn't care about the rain. Unfortunately it was just a dream. Where is she? Whrere is the rainbow after the long cold rain?