Beta pictoris, painting

On friday I've made a painting of the Beta Pictoris star in the Pictor constellation, the dust disk around it and the planet Beta Pictoris b.  I've also made sone ball point pen drawings of this system.

In the video below you can watch me making the painting of Beta Pictoris

Desire

These are the drawings and painting I've made being inspired by the poem "Dorinta" (desire) by the Romanian poet Mihai Eminescu, since the year 2000. I really fell in love with the young girl with long blond hair he was writing his poems about. He loved her. She died when she was just 19 and that has left a deep pain in Eminescu's soul. He wrote many poems about his loss.
I've made this drawings and paintings imagining she is next to me so I can feel her in my arms, touch her, kiss her.

I don't wanna be troubled again

I don't wanna be troubled again, like I was in high-school when I've made this drawing imagining I can love and be loved like anyone else does, just imagining because I was not allowed to really live my life. By that time I was so lonely, being rejected and even bullied by the kids at school because I was not dating boys. I've never liked boys.  I was just 15 when I've made this. This drawing was like a file in diary to me and now it's a memory and that's why I keep it like I do with all of my drawings. Even if they have no artistic and estetic value they have a sentimental value for me. It was the spring of 2002. By that time the drawing was hidden. I was afraid. I was even afraid of my parents. I was so scared and miserable all the time but somewhere deep within there was hope, hope things will change and we will live in a better world, hope someday I will find that love and feel it, not only dream and make drawings about it, hope one day she will come into my life.

Things have changed slowly here in Romania but I am still single, living with my parents. I've never been with someone for more than one month. People have become more tolerant allowing me to live without feeling that fear and despair all the time and I've managed to have my own social life and make some friends who accept me as I am e but I still cannot be in  a relationship with a woman because here in Romania two women cannot be together. The only form of cohabitation recognized by the state is marriage between a man and a woman. These is still some fragile progress but I am so afraid things might go backwards now when christian right forces rise here in Romania and they want to change the constitution.
I am so afraid and I don't want to suffer again like I did before. I don't wanna go back to that. It was so hard for me to get out of it.

I wish she was sleeping next to me

I've made this pencil drawing now. I wish this woman was real, sleeping next to me but I am still lonely longing for her love

My dream of a woman in the ancient Egypt

Long time ago I dreamed the image in this drawing, a mysterious woman in the ancient Egypt, kind of a princess, at the triangular entrance of a big building, maybe a pyramid.

Virus

On Friday my aunt has made some random drawings of something that looks like a virus with and icosahedra shaped capsid and a circular nuclear acid molecule inside. Yesterday my cousin got a flu. Coincidence or premonition? We don't know but this has inspired me to make the drawing above.

Earth day

My paintings of the Earth for the Earth Day

Earth Day

Today, aprilie 22 we celebrate the Earth Day so I decided to repost my drawing and paintings aboutthe Earth.

Care for the Earth, ballpoint pen drawing

Cellular division, ball point pen drawings

Care for the Earth

Taking care of our planet, ball point pen drawing

The family

Yesterday I've made a painting about the family and the love that is uniting it under  the light of God

An artist's view of the family

Yesterday I visited an exhibion of sculpture and graphics by Liviu Brezeanu and I can say I like his view of the family. Even if he is living here in Romania he has an inclusive view of the family and his art is promoting equality.

In his creations the spouses are equal and their love makes the family, feeding the seed of life

This art is about the essence, the concept of family in all of it's forms.

Liviu Brezeanu is a sculptor and a grafician. I also enjoy his pastels. He likes to make drawings about the love between two women, like I do

I've also made some drawings and paintings about the family. You can see the creations I am talking about below.

A moment of pure love

A moment of pure love

11.04.2017
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I wish I was the blonde girl with a tiara made of violets in this drawing. I wish I could hold the woman I love in my arms now instead of just dreaming about her. I wish I could play in her hair while she is kissing 💋 me and my fingers in her hair make her want me more and kiss me wildly. I wish I could feel her breasts against mine. I can only dream and make drawings about her while I am not allowed to love ❤ her

The story of two girls in love

Girls usually love to paint 🎨 princesses. Yesterday I've made this painting of two princesses in love in a dream garden 🏡 that is blooming during the spring imagining I am the one wearing the green dress and flowers 💐 in my hair and she, my love is touching my shoulder so softly. I can see the love and desire in her eyes, I can feel it in her touch. It's so sad this is not real. It's so sad I am still lonely in the story of my life and I wonder where my princess might be

Prunus persica flowers

Last week I've seen a beautiful Prunus persica tree with it's pink flowers so I decided to make this painting

Soulmates and twinflames

These are my paintings about soulmates, twin flames and love. I've made these paintings hoping, she, the one I dream of, is somewhere in this world and one day I will meet her

My drawings and paintings of the Earth

The beauty of our blue planet has inspired me to make these drawings and paintings. These are my drawings and paintings that contain the image of the Earth

Viola sororia

This is my painting of a Viola sororia flower, Sappho's favorite flower.

Not allowed to hold her hand

I wish I could hold her hand but I am not allowed to.

 I wish I could be with her but I am not allowed to. I have to live alone in this hateful society and that s why Ițve been troubled since highschool.

 These days senators Ioana Denes and Codin Stefanescu have said that same sex couples should not be allowed to hold hands in public spaces in Romania. These words have hurt me deep inside. I am so affraid they want to make russian style anti-gay laws.

Here in Romania people are very homophobic and it s almost impossible for a woman to be in a relationship with another woman. My longest relationship lasted for only 6 weeks. Even my parents hate me because I am a lesbian and, after my right to inherit the house has been denied by my relatives, now I have to leave the parental house and live on my own, just like someone who had nothing, no parents, no house, nothing. Soon they will just throw me out of the house.

I wish I could live a normal life in a free modern inclusive society. I dont wanna cry and suffer alone all the time. I dont wanna be troubled anymore.
I ve made these drawings and paintings dreaming of the love I am not allowed to have, while I wanted to be with a woman I love, to feel her loving presence nexto to me, to hold her hand, to travel with her, to enjoy every moment with her.

Face of seduction or the portrait of a wild sensual woman wearing just a pearl necklace

This is my pencil portrait drawing of a seductress. I ve made this drawing imagining she is in front of me, looking at me  with her light blue eyes. Her long hair is covering half of her face. She is wearing just a neckalce made of pearls. When I watch the drawing I feel like I want her. I want to be in front of her, to look into her eyes, while she is looking into mine, to feel her close to me, to feel her embrace. She is so wild and beautiful but there is a shadow just behind her, a misterious persone, someone she cannot see.