A fantasy and a dream of love in the universe

I've made this a few years ago, starting from one of my old teenage drawings, the drawings I've made imagining I am in a dream universe, on a distant sphere, next to a beautiful young girl, it's just me and her, I am looking in hel eyes, she is looking in my eyes and the Earth is far away. She took me there by her butterfly wings. I've always wanted to find her, to love her, to be with her but the only thing I can do is to be lonely and only dream of her and make drawings and paintings of her. I was so lonely by then, I am still lonely now.

This is the old drawing. I was 15 when I've made it. It is not a professional drawing but I keep for it's sentimental value, I keep it as a memory of one of my teenage dreams, like a page in a diary.

A moment of pure love

A moment of pure love

11.04.2017
23:50



I wish I was the blonde girl with a tiara made of violets in this drawing. I wish I could hold the woman I love in my arms now instead of just dreaming about her. I wish I could play in her hair while she is kissing 💋 me and my fingers in her hair make her want me more and kiss me wildly. I wish I could feel her breasts against mine. I can only dream and make drawings about her while I am not allowed to love ❤ her

The life of a lesbian in Romania

Sometimes I feel so lonely and sad and all I need is love, the love I am not allowed to have here in Romania, here in this God damn country where the retrograd orthodox church is governing our lives next to the corupt politicians who should all be in prison not in the parlament and now they want to make a homophobic constitution and two women cannot be together be cause here women are not really independent. Here a woman's succes depends on the men she has relationships with, not on her work. I have a lot of female friends who don't even have a job and all the successful women I know have men behind them, business men or men with important jobs. I've never meet a business woman or a woman with a well paid who is a lesbian or a single woman.

Do you know why? Be cause they have no chance in this fucking society, be cause they are discriminated all the time, be cause there are a lot of companies where the boss fires women who don't want to sleep with him. I know from my own experience. I've never liked boys and I've never had a boyfriend and I work hard just to keep myself on the lowest survival line and pay my bills and for other women like me it's even harder. I've had a girlfriend who was in a desperate situation. She has lost her job and her family was not accepting her and she had nothing, and that's what happens to most of us. We loose our jobs or we can never find a job and our homophobic relatives don't accept as as we are and that's why we can never have relationships. We have no place that is ours, nothing and to be together we must pay the price of loosing everything and remaining on the streets with no job, no money, no house, nothing. We work hard and we can never have our own house from our own work, we cannot even rent a flat to live together. We loose our jobs or we can never find a job and our homophobic relatives don't accept as as we are and that's why we can never have relationships There is an economical discrimination of women here in Romania, not only lesbians, all the women who don't have influent boyfriends or husbands.

A painting about two girls who try to stay together in a hostile world, on a n unstable ground, so fragile, so vulnerable

I've made all of these drawings and paintings in my lonely and sad moments when I could only dream about the love I cannot have. I can only paint imagining I am next to the woman I love, that's all I can do, living alone in this intolerant society.

The fire of love and passion

The fire of love and passion, a fluoreacent painting I've made last night

Frida Kahlo and Josephine Baker

This is my drawing of Frida Kahlo and Josephine Baker, one of her female lovers

A sculpture russians would probably ban

I am glad I am not living in Russia where this beautiful artwork would be considered offensive according to their gay propaganda law but even here in Romania there are many people who are to indoctrinated by orthodoxy to see the beauty in every artwork. As Cicero said "When you hear the weapons the muses are quiet" and this is what is happening in Russia where art is censored. This is not my creation but I have many paintings on this subject and many paintings of beautiful naked women appreciated by open minded people and hated by conservative christians. This object can be seen in Bucharest's old city center at the Expo Bazar Art fair, until the end of september.

The story of two girls in love

 They are together and the only thing they have is their love. They are so lonely in a hostile world, embracing while the wind is blowing, the ground is shaking and falling and the entire nature seems to be against them.They are so fragile and sensitive. Can their love survive while it has no basis, like a building that has no foundation, and both are to weak to fight for it ? Will they stay together or fall together ? This is my painting of two girls in love, it's the sad story of a love that has no future. I've made this because I've meet many girls with no job, no money and no power and I've been in that situation for a long time too. Even if it may sound materialistic the truth is that two such girls cannot be together be cause the cannot sustain each other, even if they want to. Before the painting above I've made another painting about this and everytime I look at this paintings I feel like crying

Eminescu's muse painted with coffee

The muse of Mihai Eminescu the way she is described in the poem "Atat de dulce" painted with coffee

Red rose romance, lesbian drawing and painting

 I've made the painting below ten years ago. The drawing above is newer

Lesbians, new pencil drawing

Lesbians kissing, pencil drawing

A kiss on her neck

This is an sentimental pencil drawing I've made today. I've made this drawing after a dream of love. Last night I dreamed a beautiful woman with dark hair and blue eyes was in my bed, next to me, naked, kissing holding and touching me. Haw much I wish it was real.

Two princesses, two girls kissing

The punishment of the naughty maiden

The punishment of the naughty maiden, pencil drawing

Two women making love

This is a red pen drawing of two women making love I’ve made today.

Girls kissing

This is a pencil drawing of two girls kissing I’ve made today