Beta pictoris, painting

On friday I've made a painting of the Beta Pictoris star in the Pictor constellation, the dust disk around it and the planet Beta Pictoris b.  I've also made sone ball point pen drawings of this system.

In the video below you can watch me making the painting of Beta Pictoris

Desire

These are the drawings and painting I've made being inspired by the poem "Dorinta" (desire) by the Romanian poet Mihai Eminescu, since the year 2000. I really fell in love with the young girl with long blond hair he was writing his poems about. He loved her. She died when she was just 19 and that has left a deep pain in Eminescu's soul. He wrote many poems about his loss.
I've made this drawings and paintings imagining she is next to me so I can feel her in my arms, touch her, kiss her.

I don't wanna be troubled again

I don't wanna be troubled again, like I was in high-school when I've made this drawing imagining I can love and be loved like anyone else does, just imagining because I was not allowed to really live my life. By that time I was so lonely, being rejected and even bullied by the kids at school because I was not dating boys. I've never liked boys.  I was just 15 when I've made this. This drawing was like a file in diary to me and now it's a memory and that's why I keep it like I do with all of my drawings. Even if they have no artistic and estetic value they have a sentimental value for me. It was the spring of 2002. By that time the drawing was hidden. I was afraid. I was even afraid of my parents. I was so scared and miserable all the time but somewhere deep within there was hope, hope things will change and we will live in a better world, hope someday I will find that love and feel it, not only dream and make drawings about it, hope one day she will come into my life.

Things have changed slowly here in Romania but I am still single, living with my parents. I've never been with someone for more than one month. People have become more tolerant allowing me to live without feeling that fear and despair all the time and I've managed to have my own social life and make some friends who accept me as I am e but I still cannot be in  a relationship with a woman because here in Romania two women cannot be together. The only form of cohabitation recognized by the state is marriage between a man and a woman. These is still some fragile progress but I am so afraid things might go backwards now when christian right forces rise here in Romania and they want to change the constitution.
I am so afraid and I don't want to suffer again like I did before. I don't wanna go back to that. It was so hard for me to get out of it.

I wish she was sleeping next to me

I've made this pencil drawing now. I wish this woman was real, sleeping next to me but I am still lonely longing for her love

My dream of a woman in the ancient Egypt

Long time ago I dreamed the image in this drawing, a mysterious woman in the ancient Egypt, kind of a princess, at the triangular entrance of a big building, maybe a pyramid.

Virus

On Friday my aunt has made some random drawings of something that looks like a virus with and icosahedra shaped capsid and a circular nuclear acid molecule inside. Yesterday my cousin got a flu. Coincidence or premonition? We don't know but this has inspired me to make the drawing above.

Earth day

My paintings of the Earth for the Earth Day